JUST ANOTHER "THE END"

Oh you know, I bet you see this coming too. OKAY I'll start. This is just another bye bye 2011 post. Typical. I bet you read a lot of post about 2011 and 2012. I hope mine is a bit different and because its the last day!! Aren't you excited?!
2012 is tomorrow. Another year to prove to yourself that anything is achievable if you just believe in yourself. I feel inspired.


I felt that every year is like having a new relationship. Not with guys but with YEARS and frankly 2011 is a really bad boyfriend. Haha, there's just so many ups and downs.. But I manage to pull it off with a touch of smile *SMILE* I did it gracefully. Also, just wow. Do time past so fast. Looking at my calender again, yeap. N in just 5 more hours till its a new chapter for everyone again.


As if it was just yesterday I felt that I left school for good. I miss school. Graduation was the best day. Everybody was happy smiling and excited. Full of pictures to build great memories. Don't you miss school? Its been a year for me!  I believe that when your in school, it is the only life where you are allowed to make mistakes. Because you learned fast from it and you just thought how stupid you were before and you think to yourself, I was just a little kid back then. I'm left to laugh at myself for being so stupid at times.
I am very quirky back in school and I did a lot of silly things. NO REGRETS. Just lots of FUN.


I guess this year is pretty much a whole 360 turn for me. I expected a great world ahead for myself. But everything seems to be false for me and I let my guard down. But come to think of it, of all the things I've been through. I wouldn't blame my mistakes this year and the tough times I've had. The problems I received and a lot of other typical drama. Though they were a lot of bumpy roller coaster rides for me. As some of you may know, I suffered 6 months of depression and it was NOT cool. Back then was nothing but a big bucket of crap in my face.  - To Summarize my explanation. I wasn't on track with myself and I'm always so depress. I sound like a completely boring and lifeless person but I grew up from it.


Because I learn to deal with tough things and accept what I was given. I was selfish at times in my situation but it made me stronger for myself inside and out AND I have a lot of advice's from people. LIKE major advice's. People from all ages and sharing each other problems and experience. Pretty cool huh? No, its weird actually. But the good thing is I am now back to being who I used to be,
 I thanked god for putting me on the right track again but just a bit more responsible and realistic now.
I am aware and careful but at the same time little mistake comes along the way yet I can always forget and move on from it.


Right now, at this present moment. I'm really prepared for 2012. Like, I'm so excited. I could not wait for the next day to come. I know that things will change. A lot of things will change.
 I'm still afraid of the future but I believe that every day is a new day.
 I build this whole new me and I can't wait for things to change more. Good things to be better. Dreams that comes true. To start off my amazing plan, I basically would just prepare NEW YEAR resolutions. Because I'm a tad bit of an organizer for myself and I really followed my resolutions. LIKE REALLY I DO!
(OKAY, 75% of it?)

One of them is of course, to not stop inspiring people. I thanked all of those who got inspired by me and I'm happy that many people smiled after that. I'm glad that my resolution came out good and I'd like to show good examples to kids more. I love kids and I believe inspiration starts from there. I want to be more happy and caring towards myself and others, so that we could build a good atmosphere and place for each other. I work in a good place where everyone is friendly (sometimes) and I'm just starting to fell in love with what I do. Though, I still have yet to complete my task as I would want to go to Fashion School someday.
 I could just forget about my I.E but that's my back up plan.
But mostly, to find something new for myself.

Other than that, maybe giving chances and getting chances. Because chances may lead us to something good. See like Namewee, for example. People gave him a chance to start over what he did (after insulting other races) but he apologize already and he is really sorry for what he did. AND he did a super great movie. Isn't that great? To get chances, we have to work for it. I hope to get great chances.

Well, that's about me. I still have more but I don't wanna write a lot of my resolutions here. Other than that, I'm pretty close to my parents again. Mom and dad though I'm still their average pain in the ass daughter at times. I can't help it, its just normal to be one sometimes. But I would never break their hearts. I love them and I wanna make them proud. I don't wanna be a daughter where I regret not spending time with them. YES I do a have life on my own, but sharing my life with them would mean the world to them. After what my mother have been through, I would do whatever it takes to fix everything again.
She's been hurt by so many people and all she need is happiness. 

She deserves happiness, and as for dad. THINGS are okay again.

A lot of people ask me would I fall in love next year. WELL YEA I don't want to be single for the rest of my life but I don't want to rush in this kind of things at the same time. Love is beautiful yet scary.
The guys that I like tend to not like me back. BUMMER much.
 Someday there will be someone I don't know when but as for now. Single it is. BUT to know what kind of guy do I want. Well I've read and watch a lot of love stories, I guess I want a guy who makes other girls jealous for loving me. If he really loves me that is. Which I find that completely impossible. Its like wishing for drinking the best water from the mountains everyday.

So I shall end my post here, to those who are reading and my loyal regular readers. Thank you so much. 

I would update this blog often. To make someones day complete. I don't like wishing people HAPPY NEW YEAR. Because we cant guarantee happiness everyday. So here is from me.

SURVIVE A NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

JaszyRay~