RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW

It's the 3rd day of January! I'm back to drinking Pepsi again. 31 days of not having Pepsi last year. I was so deprived but it thought me something, which is not taking too much sugar, so now I just drink Pepsi once in a while (2-3 cans in a week?? I had to have Pepsi every single day before). I drink a lot of water now too.
No more dry skin. I still have eczema though. My only imperfection.


Its been 3 years of having this blog though my archives starts on 2010. I was hacked on 2009 and all my posts were erased by those trolls. But that doesn't stopped me from blogging. KEEP CALM AND BLOG.


I'm still on my holiday mood. Though its back to work and assignments. Just 4 more months till I finish my I.E.  That is I think, so far so good. Back to where I was before. Slowly making my dreams come true. Only happier and more excited to look forward for another day. I just don't want to give up, you know?



Currently listening to Right Here, Right Now by Vanessa Hudgens and Zac Efron. OMG could you believe it that I was a HSM fan? I know, embarrassing but I grew up from it okay AND that's when I was 13! I ended my love and crazy fan-ish-self for HSM when I was 15. ALRIGHT, 16! Oh god, remembering those times when I was 13. I was just a manga freak back then and I was so shy I would just sit in the corner and read. I still do though, Not the manga freak anymore but I still read. I love reading. As years goes by, I changed.



Its a New Year, another year to make a change. There's nothing wrong with changing. The changes in life reflects who you are. The quote people change fast, well yea people do change. But I always know that it is in a good way, I don't see whats wrong with changing. Everybody tells me that I change too fast and most of the people who used to be a part in my life can't accept my changes, and as a best friend/girlfriend, how can you not accept people's changes for being a better person for themselves. I change because I want to know who I really am, what I'm really capable of and what is it that I'm missing. Its just that sometimes you feel that you can do almost anything but there are lots of ups and downs coming along the way. Get what I mean?



Okay, I do admit that I hurt a lot of people along the way, people who I loved so much and even a sincere sorry is not good enough. I didn't mean to hurt anyone. I've had labels and people calling me names. Unpleasant names. But I accepted those names and come to think of it, none of you were there for me when I was in trouble so why do I have to accept the fact that you can't accept me for who I am. You just needed me when your in trouble and when you don't need me you forget about me till I'm in need of you? N blame me for being attention seeking. I guess your just not meant to be a part in my life.


But I'm not always right as well. I am wrong too. Karma got me back okay. I do make mistakes and I have always admit my mistakes. Learning from it takes time. Sometimes the mistakes that you do just have to see the people you love so much go. Sometimes the most devastating things that happens to you, will teach you the most. KARMA is a bitch but its just another wake up call to me, no matter how heavy KARMA gives you to suffer back and sometimes you cannot see yourself clearly until you see yourself through the eyes of others and I still manage to say sorry. A sincere one. Here's a quote,

How can you be old and wise when your not young and crazy before? 

You know when you got hurt and you feel like its the end of the world, I get it. I've been there, I was hurt so much last year but that doesn't mean I quit trying. The good thing is I accepted my past and threw it away from my mind. Like a big bottle of messed up things and I threw it in the sea and I felt better. I'm emotional and unstable but that's just me. I'm still that deep person who sees the world from the crowds. Because people are people and we just to accept what comes along the way. So why do I have to wake up in the morning with regrets? Right?


Just give me a chance and I'll give you a chance back too. 2012 wont be bad if you wont make things bad. STOP ANALYZING. Its just another year. Lets make a start of something new. Have hope and lets bring out the best for this year. To those who loves me back, parents, siblings, best friends, my new friends who are oh-so-nice, my loyal readers. Thank you and I love you too :)


JaszyRay~